The last two days I didn’t share a blog. I don’t have an excuse for it. Of course there were reasons for why I didn’t write, but I could’ve written something if I really wanted to. But I didn’t. I just didn’t felt like writing anymore after I got home. What the biggest problem was, was that I just couldn’t break through this energy dip. Normally that happens when I chill too long after I get home. Then I’m just really in the chilling vibe, and just don’t want to work on anything anymore. Today I am back again for a free writing session. I still have some ideas I want to write about as well, but free writing just feels good for now.
I am tired. When I wrote my New Year’s resolutions blog, it gave me a lot of energy. Ready to take over the world! It was a temporary fix. The last quarter of 2023 has been a rollercoaster ride, in a personal and a professional way. That is taking its toll now. The fix wasn’t a real fix. It was only a bandage which is coming off now. Today I have spent a lot of time inside my head again. I have been thinking about the last couple of months. Playing the tape of certain events again, wondering if I should’ve done something different. Could I have changed the outcome? Of course it is all history. I can’t change anything that has happened already. But still, sometimes these thoughts enter my head again. Playing the tape, rewinding the tape, write a different scenario. Days like these drain way more off my energy than a long day at work.