I like these days where I feel that good tiredness. It is the fulfilled feeling of having had a productive day. After days like these, I want to get home, eat a good meal, take a shower, and then finally have a good night sleep. Even though I’m feeling tired, I also feel calm. I did everything I wanted to do today, at least when it comes to work, so why shouldn’t I feel calm? Only thing left for me is to end the day, and maybe even write something, which of course I’m doing right now.
What day better to get back on track again than Monday? It is the same as New Year’s resolutions. Start good at the start of a new day. Maybe it is symbolic to start with good habits on Monday, but it could be that that is just the push I need. Just start doing better, feeling better, at the start of a new week. Starting with something at the start of something. But it wasn’t the case that I really felt terrible or something. I just couldn’t find the energy to do something productive. I could keep going on about that feeling, and that my head just wasn’t in the right place, but I don’t want to. I’d rather think about moving forward, and get back on track again.
I have been thinking about not writing today. That would make 2 days on which I didn’t write a blog. But I got myself to it anyway. I could live with not writing a blog one day, but two days are a bit too much. Yesterday I just really didn’t had the energy to write a blog. I had to work for the first time since two weeks off, and just was done at the end of the day. So I didn’t do a lot yesterday after I got home. That is kinda the plan for this whole week. Just ease in that daily grind again, and make everything work again.
Ever since I came back from my holiday in Spain, I’ve been feeling kinda down. I still enjoy doing things, but it is just the immense decrease of energy that has been bothering me. Of course I didn’t think that going to Spain would be the miracle cure to everything I’ve been dealing with lately. During my stay there though, I really thought that I’ve got my priorities straight again. I made plans, and was really motivated. I even started a new blogging series: Path Of Life. So how come all this good energy was gone after I got back home again?
Today I had an appointment at the barbershop to get my hair cut again. I made the appointment last Saturday, to be there at 12:00, as soon as the place would open up. So I came in just before 12:00, right on time for the haircut. An elderly man was already waiting. Since there was only one barber working today, people had to wait for some time to get their haircuts. That is why I made an appointment. Then I at least know when I will get my haircut. So as soon as I got in, I was the first customer of the day. The old man didn’t like that, even though we explained him, in English and Dutch, that I had an appointment at 12:00. The man felt like he should be first, because he was in the barbershop first. He was throwing a tantrum, and kept making snarky comments. The amount of disrespect the man was showing, really annoyed me. I was losing my respect for that old man. Even though we often get told to respect the elderly, I started to question that. No matter what age you are, if you are disrespectful to other people, I don’t think you deserve to get respect.