Ever since I came back from my holiday in Spain, I’ve been feeling kinda down. I still enjoy doing things, but it is just the immense decrease of energy that has been bothering me. Of course I didn’t think that going to Spain would be the miracle cure to everything I’ve been dealing with lately. During my stay there though, I really thought that I’ve got my priorities straight again. I made plans, and was really motivated. I even started a new blogging series: Path Of Life. So how come all this good energy was gone after I got back home again?
Category: 366 Days
Some days I’m just not feeling it. Then I just don’t feel like doing anything other then mind-numbing activities. I used to feel bad about that. What good could a day be, when I didn’t do anything productive? It is the perfectionist mind. Whenever I would just enjoy doing nothing at all, the perfectionist mind steps onto the stage, and will tell me that I should feel bad for not doing anything. Now I really don’t care anymore. These days are also just a part of life. It is just the way it is.
Today I had an appointment at the barbershop to get my hair cut again. I made the appointment last Saturday, to be there at 12:00, as soon as the place would open up. So I came in just before 12:00, right on time for the haircut. An elderly man was already waiting. Since there was only one barber working today, people had to wait for some time to get their haircuts. That is why I made an appointment. Then I at least know when I will get my haircut. So as soon as I got in, I was the first customer of the day. The old man didn’t like that, even though we explained him, in English and Dutch, that I had an appointment at 12:00. The man felt like he should be first, because he was in the barbershop first. He was throwing a tantrum, and kept making snarky comments. The amount of disrespect the man was showing, really annoyed me. I was losing my respect for that old man. Even though we often get told to respect the elderly, I started to question that. No matter what age you are, if you are disrespectful to other people, I don’t think you deserve to get respect.
I’m back home again
Missing the sunshine right now
When can I go back?
With the start of February here, it is my intention to start looking inward more. I don’t want to be bothered as much anymore by what other people do. That doesn’t matter anyway. Like I said before, everything can and will change. That fact is the only thing that ironically enough will never change. However, it is easier said than done to not be bothered by the actions of others anymore. But it will be my goal for this month anyway. Even when I can only progress to that goal a little bit this month, I am sure that it will benefit my bigger goals.